spastic

im damn spastic.
i dunno why i try so hard?
mayb cos i love too much.
i dont wanna try.
dont wanna love as much anm.
its taking a toll on me.
im drained.
im a jealous.
posssive bitch.
how does that feel?
totally insane fer me.
loneliness is my best fren.
i should have just stuck to alone by the beach.
why am i trying somethg which seems impossible to me?
is it that characteristic of mankind to be like that.
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im real upset.
i know i aint better dan her.
somehow i feel i aint better dan anyone.
im at e lowest of all de ppl.
like e toad.
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i dunno mans.
life seems so fake.
seesh*
why must my life b like that?
why doesnt anyone understand?
why doesnt anyone gimme a breakthrough?
why dont ppl think for others instead of themselves?
i think ppl are too self-centered on their own interest.
i dunno wot to say.
im self centered in my own special way.
all i can say is,
i guess i really suck.
super big time.
arrgghhh*
>.< heres a gal wincg in pain.
c'mon, laugh at her stupidity.
she drank wine just to forget.
she got heated up.
mayb she should try it again.
it was great at e esplanade and at song's b'dae.
totally awesome.
somehw, i still wish he was thr..
dream a dream, fool.